This number has big meaning for me today.  No…I’m not turning 30 (again) but this is even bigger than that.

Way back in March I set a few big goals for myself. Little did I know what life would have in store for me at that time.  So many ups and downs since then – sadly more downs than ups – but this a post of celebration.

I am officially down 30 pounds!  Hooray!

Clothes that haven’t fit since before I had kids (yikes!) fit again. Double Hooray!

And even my ‘skinny’ jeans of old are too big already. Triple Hooray!

While I would love to be able to attribute all of this lost weight solely to healthy eating and exercise – the truth is that at least half of it came off as a result of my recent bout with depression and the fact I pretty much existed on coffee for 5 weeks.

but hey…that’s not very positive is it? So let’s concentrate on the other half that did come off due to hard work…and pounding pavement.

Running.  Who knew I would love it as much as I do? I certainly didn’t expect to but love it I do.  I love the feeling of lacing up my runners and pluggin in my ear buds.  I love that I can do it anywhere and anytime.

And I love the changes it has made to my body.  My legs are leaner and stronger. I can run with my head up and can even talk while I run now. If you had asked me back in March when I was struggling to get through just 30 seconds of running I would have thought that impossible.

But now…oh now…I know better.  I know what I am truly capable of. Which leads me to the second important “30”.

30 days from now I will be competing in my first official 5k race.

Just a few days ago I will still feeling a little nervous about this since I had yet to finish an actual 5k distance. So yesterday I decided to conquer that fear and just do it.

I battled through wicked side stiches (must drink more water) and an even more wicked head wind to complete my first 5k in just over 40  minutes.

The fact that I had to walk a good deal of the distance because of the stiches was a disappointment to be sure but it also proved that even having to walk I could still complete the distance in good time.

And I am certain that on race day – with the knowledge that my loved ones will be waiting for me at the finish line – I will be able to overcome any obstacles.

I would be lying if I said I wasn’t looking forward to seeing 2013 come to an end. But this year has also been one of great revelation for me.  I have learned a lot about myself. About the depth of both my emotional and physical strength. And about how hitting rock bottom can be liberating in a way.

I know that in 2014 there is no where for me to go but up.

Except on the scale… 

That my friends…is going down.

One thought on “Thirty…

  1. Good for you!!! Running a 5km is a HUGE accomplishment and losing 30LBS Is absolutely something to celebrate!!!! Can't wait to hear about race day1


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